Good things coming

Good things come to those who wait.
Better things come to those who believe.
And the best things come to those who don't give up.

Hey guys, I got divorced last year.
People told me, "oh you'll be able to jump right back into dating, you young little thing, you."
I said 'i know.'
People told me "i bet you'll be married again within a year."
I said 'i know.'
People told me "it'll be like it never happened- you're so great, dating won't be an issue."
I said "i know.'

I didn't know.  On all counts.

But I thought I did.  Over the last few weeks I've realized that although I said I was still all for marriage and had that as my goal, I didn't actually believe that this was possible.  One of my best friends recently observed that I'm kind of a relationship hater.  Ouch.  True.  I've been on a lot of dates over the last year.  Haven't put an ounce of effort into making any of them turn into a relationship.  One of these gentlemen told me that he felt I wasn't willing to try a relationship because I was scared.  But that's not it.  (and yes, that poor gentleman hit the road shortly thereafter....) It's not that I've been scared (i mean i am, but that's not the point at hand), it's that I just haven't believed that the kind of relationship I thought I had last go around was actually possible in reality.

I've been looking around at couples in love.  Couples getting married. Couples staying married.  And it's literally confusing.  I do not understand how it happens.  For the past 15 months I have not understood how that can actually happen in my life.  I mean, I don't live in a movie here.  Who says a knight in shining armor has any place in the story of my life?

Well here's the thing: someone with some serious credibility has told me that a healthy, loving and eternal relationship can be in my life.  And its taking a significant amount of faith to trust Him on it.  But I think I'm starting to understand faith.  Because once you get a glimpse of the kind of potential Heavenly Father can see in your life, and you have the faith that He can actually get you there, then a whole range of possibilities open up.

CLARIFICATION: I'm not dating anyone.  Haven't just met "the one." But I just have a feeling that good things are coming my way and I'm thriving on the idea that I can actually have good things if I keep doing what I'm supposed to be doing. 

E.E. Cummings said "it takes courage to grow up. & to become who you really are."
Well amen, Edward.  You got that right.